I know I’m not the only one who finds their self unenthused to continue their fitness routine and constantly falls off the band wagon. Although I have found activities that I enjoy, sometimes sleep seems more inviting since I’m already in bed. Not only do I have to get up, but I have to put socks and tennis shoes on (ugh! I prefer breezy sandals), and then there’s the issue of wearing clothes, and then driving to the dance studio, or walking to the pool, then after that’s all done, I have to shower and change clothes all over again- just so many things!
And yes.
Everything I listed is an excuse.
A huge excuse to persuade myself to not take care of myself, to not fight for my health, and to not love myself.
Why do we sabotage ourselves?
I’m thinking there is an underlying cause and I would like to explore that right now, so read on as I ask myself some questions.
Why do you want to lose weight?
I really just want a healthy lifestyle. Once I have that and consistently, I know pounds will start to melt away.
If you want the healthy lifestyle, why is it so hard to commit?
It’s scary, I guess. I mean, what if I actually get to my goal weight? What would I work on then? I’ve been overweight my entire life, I would feel like a part of me was missing.
So you see your weight as a security blanket?
Yeah… I guess.
What do you need security from? Are you scared of something?
I’m afraid that if I’m at a socially acceptable weight and looking amazing that people will start noticing me and not for the reasons I want to be noticed. I’ve always looked for what’s on the inside and I feel like my weight helps weed out jerks and shallow people. I also like being curvy and don’t want to lose that.
First of all, you’re a woman and you will always be curvy.
Touché…
Secondly, you are strong enough to weed those people out yourself. Your nose can smell drama miles away, and you can feel when someone is not being genuine or with an agenda. You don’t need your weight to do something you already do yourself.
I never realized that I already do that.
You don’t give yourself enough credit. You’re afraid of change and I get that, but we’re talking about your health. The only person who can change your habits is you. You are the one person on this planet that can have the biggest impact on yourself, and hey! You can impact others and prove that it is possible. You will not change except for the influx of confidence and less pressure on your back and joints.
You had one reason to not lose the weight and more reasons to do it than you can count on all of your appendages combined.
I get the point. You’re embarrassing me.
Will you commit to you?
Ask me again in a week.
No.
Fine.
I commit to me.
