Being disciplined takes time and determination. As I enter week four the relativity of time becomes more apparent than ever. Four weeks sounds like a long time but it seems that on a daily basis it feels like an eternity. Each day I try to approach in a series of a segmented day. Just have a good breakfast I say in the morning. Then its on to get to noon and not think about eating. I try to fit my workouts around this time like between 11 and 2. That takes my mind off of food. Then to recoup and rest , food doesn’t appeal to me. As early evening approaches I try to think of a Paleo dinner, meat or fish, veggies and a good starch like plantains.
I make believe it’s a job and I have to cook something good but yet different everyday. I have found that being gluten free and keeping my insulin level from spiking has made me satisfied and full after a good caveman dinner. Tonight I had a nice rib eye steak, broccoli, plantains sauteed in coconut oil and a mango for dessert. I was totally full and content and even though it was still early, food was off my mind and I could put another day under my belt of keeping on my diet regime. But it was only one more day.
At times it felt this day was like a week of discipline. Today was my weigh in day and I am down 2 1/2 lbs for the week. Not spectacular but at least I broke the 260 barrier. So now my next mini goal is to hit 250 and I will try to reach it by next week. But this week ahead seems like an eternity away. Its like the AA saying ” one day at a time”. Don’t worry about this week or even tomorrow, just get by today. This whole mental game I have created within my head is interesting when I think about it.
We are so programmed and bombarded by food related stimuli all around us. TV ads, billboards, radio ads, conversation…. Its all we think about, what did you have for lunch, what do you want for dinner, what sounds good, where do you want to eat. It’s all consuming and not just subliminally. We eat for crazy reasons — boredom, loneliness, anger, sadness, happiness, anxiety, reward, suffering. We turn to food first to relieve all of these feelings. We can’t get through the day without thinking of food.
And so, the time slows down for me to get through one more day. But I do have a growing understanding of this whole complex attitude I have with food. This Paleo diet makes the most sense to me of all the yo-yo things I have tried in my life. Each day I learn a little bit more about myself and how I am changing my eating lifestyle. But this week went by very slow for me. Again as Einstein said… “It’s all relative”.
Maybe it’s because the summer is coming to an end and I don’t want it to end so I am trying to make the days go by slow…………. Nah… I’m just hitting the first month of the rest of my new eating life. It will pass I hope but it feels good to vent and talk about it. I am still trying to figure out how to get some pics up on line. Next week I will photo some of the dishes I make but its hard and an art to shoot food and make it look good but I’ll try. Until then to all of you out there in your own diet scene… Stay the course, be strong and be healthy.
