Catherine Week 1: Watching the Olympics and Being Inspired…

It is Monday night and men’s gymnastics is on right now… well… it is a rebroadcast of the competition from earlier as California is eight hours behind Great Britain in time. Still it is awe-inspiring to watch. The young men are just flying around in the air. They make it look so easy and effortless but you know it is not. It takes years of dedicated focus and determination. You look at their faces when the camera shows them in close up on the TV and it is all there on their young faces. It is beautiful to see but for me it also speaks to my heart and soul right now. At this point in my life I need to find and see inspiration where ever I can find it to help ME stay focused. I admit I have been having a bit of a problem lately. Not that I have been “cheating” badly or anything like that. I have been having a hard time staying focused on my exercising and being consistent with it. Being focused and consistent also spills into other aspects of my life. I am concerned and I have been saddened and worried by this. That is why doing this blog is going to be so good for me. I really believe it is going to help me recommit and refocus.

About me — I have been a plus size gal all my life. I wasn’t aware I was “overweight” or “different” until it was pointed out to me in the 4th grade. Up until then, I was a very happy, care-free child but when that happened there was a definite shift in my world. I was still happy, mind you, but no longer as care free because being labeled as “fat” , “heavy”, “chubby”, etc. was forever associated with me and that was enforced on me as something very shameful. I had to lose weight. Thus, began my life-long struggle to try and lose my excess weight and the dangerous cycle of yo-yo dieting. I know so many of you can relate to this. What was ironic and made it worse was my mother was a public health nurse for the City of New York AND the school nurse at MY school. How do you like them apples? Talk about pressure! Not very fair on a kid. People wondered ‘how can a nurses child be overweight?’ Well, when you come from a family where there is so much emphasis on food it is not surprising. I am second generation American on my mother’s side. My maternal grandparents were from Poland. My father’s family came here earlier, possibly as far back as the 18th century one branch of it, and they were from Ireland and Scotland and then from the South.  So you know all these cultures are always about the food, the food, the food!

I am not going to pack everything about me into this blog right now or we’d be here all week! I will share with you more and more about me as time goes on. Let’s go on this journey together. The highs and lows… ups and downs and side-ways too. :-)

About CatherineH

I am a NYC gal living in Southern California. I am an actress/singer/model who had a very successful career back in NYC but it was time to make a change. Little did I know that the change would come in the form of me becoming very sick and almost dying. It has been a slow and long process recovering, but I am doing it. I am now disabled but I am learning how to live with it and not let it define me.

7 Responses to Catherine Week 1: Watching the Olympics and Being Inspired…

  1. marty says:

    I’ll be following you on the journey and cheering you on. Olympic athletes = Boring. Catherine Ann Hayes = Interesting!

  2. JJP says:

    Cool blog! I think you’ll be a natural at this too ;)

  3. DIANE MATESKY says:

    CATHIE I LOVE FOLLOWING YOUR SUCCESS,YOU HAVE BEEN A WONDERFUL INSPIRATION FOR ME, YOU SHOULD BE COMMENDED FOR ALL YOUR HARD WORK. YOU HAVE A BEAUTIFUL FACE, BUT MUCH MORE A BEAUTIFUL HEART. THANK YOU FOR HELPING ME GET STARTED AGAIN ON A LONG BATTLE THAT I HAVE ALWAYS HAD!

  4. DIANE MATESKY says:

    WONDERFUL INSPIRATION KEEP UP GOOD WORK

  5. MichaelaB says:

    Let’s see where this journey takes us! I’m putting my money on us. You go girl!

  6. catherine H says:

    ONWARD AND UPWARD LADIES!!! WE CAN DO THIS!! WE HAVE EACH OTHER!!! MUCH LOVE!!! XXXOOO

  7. Edie J says:

    I finally had a moment to begin reading your blog. I am of the same mind – unfocused, inconsistent and 100 pounds heavier than I should be… or want to be… or need to be for my health. SO, here and now I am making myself a promise, that as I follow your progress, I will begin to turn around my own sedentary, fat and sugar-laden life, and find the thinner, healthier me that has been hidden by all this excess weight. Thanks for inspiring me to begin again…