I say with less enthusiasm than I had imagined I would, but I reached my first goal of 154 lbs. and actually surpassed it by a pound. No, I am not done with weight loss, not even close, but I find myself feeling exhausted and discouraged. I feel like I have sacrificed so much, said ‘no’ to so many things, and focused on losing weight more than other more important things in my life. Honestly, I can’t really even put my finger on what my complaints even are with this. The cravings for excessive eating, junk food, breads, carbs etc. have stopped some time ago. Exercise is something I enjoy doing, and have committed to doing regardless of my weight goals.
Like I said prior, I am not finished with my weight loss, even though the previous words were not those of an excited or positive person. What I need to do now is reexamine my approach and reevaluate to losing weight. The things I am doing now are working for me but at the same time they are not. If I have lost all enthusiasm, is it really possible for me to keep this up? Won’t I just get burnt out and crash? It just feels so silly to complain because everything is there to make me happy about what I am doing. My energy levels are up, I don’t ever feel deprived or hungry, and I am losing weight. I feel like I need something to get me excited again.
Well until I can decide where I am going next, I will just keep doing things this way until I reevaluate my path and think of something that inspires me more. I actually thought about joining an online diet like Weight Watchers, Atkins, or the Sonoma diet but those are too costly to take a chance on. I’m worried they won’t help me lose any more weight, and then I will have paid out and basically lost money. If I failed on a structured diet like that, I would probably give up on trying to lose any more weight. I’m such a perfectionist, and if I can’t do something exactly, I just want to hide.
Enough whining I suppose and back to the good news. I weighed in less my goal weight this week and I hope I can keep losing. To recap, I started out doing just low-carb, and after I got the hang out that, I started intermittent fasting. If you don’t know, intermittent fasting is where you structure your meals with long stretches of time in between. It seems like a ‘big deal’ or crash diet, but it’s pretty simple when you do it my way; all I’m doing is eating all of my calories before 5 pm. I’ve had some ups and downs but I’m at my phase one goal.
My next goal for now is to hit 149 lbs., at my height this is the number that gives me a normal BMI. It seems like a little goal but I’m feeling very puffy already this week and haven’t lost any since seeing 153 lbs. on the scale.